Sunday July 7, 2019
It has been a week of pain or maybe I should say continued pain. I had to leave work early because I could no longer sit and take calls. One of my co-workers looked at me and could tell the pain was incredible and asked me if I needed help. My response was - Lots of it. My pain that I am experiencing is because of enflamed lymph nodes which is making some simple things like sitting now uncomfortable. My primary doctor is going to be contacting my Urologist on Monday to decide on a plan of action on the nodes. I am just pushing on and attempting to do a continuous mind over matter exercise to forget the pain.
I did see the medical report for my scans and although there are many areas that could probably use a PET scan it does clearly report the Cancer has spread to a rib. Somewhat interesting and this is the importance of a PET scan - I have found out that Prostate Cancer likes to spread to bone ...but it can mimic the growth of new bone. Just think about that for a minute or two. Medical professionals and Scientists the world over are working on learning as much about Cancer as possible and how to beat it...but this crazy disease can mimic the development of bone.
This week I see my Dr. and we will discuss treatment options. I think at this point that I am ready to throw everything at it and see if I can beat the Cancer and put it into a very long state of remission. Immunotherapy, Hormone Therapy, Chemo, Radiation and surgery. I wish I could connect with a friend, actually he was my Best Man at my wedding in Canada. He and I met during our high school years. He is now the CEO of a company working on Immunotherapy.
That is about all I have to say this week. The poem is not quite correct because I am not on this journey alone. Although, I do know some that have been forced into the position.
It is well with my soul.
Take me down the road
To where that
Divide occurs.
Where I must stand and
Ponder as
Robert Frost did
So long ago
Oh the road
That has been trodden on
Seems to easy
To navigate
Yet, my heart begs
Me to go down
The road
Less travelled
The road is
Not smooth
Nor is it
Appealing
It grabs my attention
As I hear calls
Of those ahead
All individuals
Thrust down
This road
by an evil force
of nature
I am called to
Take this road
And journey
Into the unknown
The road
Less travelled
Curves into
The trees and
Darkness
My courage
To venture
Forward is all I have